Perhaps the fastest way to "time travel" is through music. These last few weeks have been spent combing Youtube for songs that I reveled in at a time when things were much simpler. I'm already building a playlist as I'm writing this down.
If I could time travel for real, I would go back to the optimistic high school student who could just enjoy the moment without being too pressured to succeed. Back then, there was just pure potential and the infinite possibilities of what I could become if I wanted to. Now, it feels like either "You made your bed, now lie in it." or "You ought to have figured it out at this point." Maybe 17 Again really is a thing...
Don't get me wrong. This isn't a rant about regrets as I'm simply not that kind of person. I prefer to move ever forward, but it doesn't hurt to look back once in a while because there were some wonderful and positive things back there that I don't mind taking with me to the present. Primarily, I would love to have the sense of confidence that I had before. Thinking, "Okay, I can do this! It'll be fun." As an adult, it's a bit harder to psyche myself up that way. There always seems to be this sense of urgency hovering above me every waking second.
No time like the present.
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